Wow it seems like a million years ago since I made my first post. I was very excited and wanted to share everything about my early retirement with the whole world. I still do, but I wish I could say this decision was totally confirmed as my next step in life. It’s just not that easy.
To retire or not retire, that is the question.
I’m in the Valley of Indecision, wishing I could promote to a higher level, push harder, make more money, work, work, work! But knowing that I need to slow this boat down or sacrifice my health, gives me pause. I asked God to help me with this and He’s definitely doing it. I just have to listen. Lord, I’m listening.
If this is you too, then stay strong . Know that the right answer will come, it’ll be a good answer, and it will put you exactly where you need to be. Talk to you soon, thanks for taking this journey with me!
I am a 57 year old African American female. I am an HR professional with one of the largest companies in the world. I am a Christian.
I always thought I would retire at 65 with a full pension and enough marbles left in my head to still be useful. I also thought I would marry a famous actor, have 2.5 kids and breed AKC German Shepherd puppies. Well, life is what happens after you make all your plans. I’m single, I have one great kid, one cute Pit-bull Labrador mix puppy, and two chubby cats! Life is good.
I do love my life. I thank God for it everyday. But on March 29, 2016, I broke down. It had been a long time coming. I had a stroke on the job, November 19, 2014. I swiftly recuperated from right side paralysis, but I’m really not the same. Every day became a chore. I started making mistakes, big ones. I stopped being able to remember important information and the up to 2 hour commute became torture. My proficiency as a highly responsible HR professional and my upward climb to management, has come to a screeching halt. As my boss put it “You are no longer 100%.” To which I replied “I am making a new 100%.”
Yikes! I was overwhelmed, and I didn’t know where to turn. For some reason, I thought God had no sympathy for middle-aged women who cannot just “suck it up” and “keep it pushing.” I thought I failed Him and He had no use for me. I was wrong, I didn’t realize it then, but I do now. We all fall short of the glory of God, but He loves us just the same. God is Love.
Since that time, I have been busy addressing my physical, spiritual and emotional issues. The final result is…I need to retire. I need to slow this boat down. I can not longer work 50-60 hours a week solving HR problems. I need to take another path, with God’s direction and caring love.
So what’s this blog about? My journey to early retirement and my renewed career as a writer and God’s message of unconditional love.